Aaron Jackson VanHorn

Sam and Tommy had their baby on 10/11.

I Know Aaron really would have wanted to be there to see him:

Comments

[Beth]

It's amazing how the thought of this day makes my heart sink every year. 3 years! That's crazy! With constant thought of you and what an awesome person and friend you are it doesn't seem so long. The encompassing hugs are a different story! Aaron, my just lost my lil' boy at 5 months and I feel safe knowing he'll be accepting those hugs for me! Please take care of him!

[Someone]

I keep thinking about tomorrow three years ago, it was the worst!! I wish you would have realized there was a lot of us to help you through whatever it was. I miss you like crazy and cherish your years of friendship. I wish you were still here! I keep the family in my thoughts and prayers! Love you Aaron!!

[bobby]

myself and my girl think of you often... we miss you very very much. i know you know what you meant to us.

[Beth]

I glanced in my rearview mirror when I was driving yesturday and saw your face in my back seat. Thank you for being there.

[Kyle]

I had a dream about Aaron last night. I was at my mom and dad's house, and Aaron was driving by. I ran out, jumped in his car, and told him not to do it. Begged him not to do it. He just smiled and told me not to worry.

I guess that's the conversation I wish I could have had with him.

[Deby]

I think of you periodically and really wish you were not gone. I have customers that you knew, that you dated , that you took care of at a bar. We talk of you but I have never come back on line to talk to you. I had one of those today and she was telling me that she thought your brother looked just like you, I told her noooo he was a one of a kind and that he was the most giving nephew and it didn't matter who you were with or where you were, you always made time for me.I remember when we came to lolly's and we went out and compared each other's bikes. I really wish we would have had time to go riding together, that would have been awesome.... Wonder how yours is doing. I'm sure your friend is taking good care of it. I am glad your mom has another aaron. That is great. Giavonna and I talk about you sometimes. Hey, Maria had a baby!!!! A boy on superbowl sunday. You'd be happy to know she is happy now. And Garrett is adorable. Take care Aaron know that you are still thought of and that people are still missing you. It does not seem like so much time has passed. I only wish someone could have helped you. Sometimes secrets are not good. Love, Deby

[Giovanna]

Recently I had a dream about Aaron and have thought about him so much. With Aaron, we usually would see each other every year or every couple years. We always knew that we were out there. I keep thinking, it's been a while since I have seen him, so I'm sure to run into him.

Well, in the dream, Aaron and I were at the mall and had bumped into each other. That's how it always worked with him and I. It's strange really. The only reason I met him, was the night Meredith and I got out of the house and went to Denny's. There was Aaron and Dan.
Back to the dream. So Aaron and I bump into each other and flirting like crazy. Aaron always made me feel so damn sexy. So we decide that we are going to have dinner together. We go to leave and I see my mother. She then goes on how I shouldn't be with Aaron. The whole song and dance that she said when I was 16. I kept trying to get her to shut up. Finally, I say, "mom, he is a ghost. Aaron died. And as soon as you say that he is gone, he is gone". And to my shock, I turn around and Aaron is gone.

Since this dream, I have to remind myself that he is gone. And I think of all his close friends and family like Sam, Rusty, Dan, Michelle, and so many others that loved him so much. And if I only cared for him a little, and I still hurt, how are the rest of you doing? So, tonight I think of all those who loved Aaron that got left behind, and hoping that the pain is a little less than it was for you. Here's to hope.

[not needed]

I've been thinking about Aaron a lot lately I see him in stangers and it's very scary. I miss him I hope somehow he knows that! I can't stop crying I can't eat I can't sleep I really think I'm just now realizing that he's gone for some reason! It makes me sick to think I never got to say goodbye that he never knew how I fell about him...

[mom]

Baby Aaron is a lot like you. On the go constantly, into everything. Taking things apart. and when he reaches his arms up for me, I think of you. I can still smell your hair as you sat on my lap as a toddler. I am willing to overlook the number of times you head butted me in the process, but I relish the smell of your fresh baby hair.

[Cari]

I've been dreaming of Aaron quite frequently lately. My dreams are always foggy and he never says anything to me. He just smiles.
I thought as time passed I would think of him less. It's quite the opposite. Little things that would seem to have no significance bring back memories of things that I haven't thought of since the day they happened, and it seems that more often than not, his name works its way into my conversation.
I know that Aaron would want us to continue to live, love, and eventually laugh. Our lives will never be the same, but it is up to us to heal and to keep his memory alive.
He was the most brilliant and captivating person I have ever met and I will never stop speaking of him.

[Beth]

I'm a little late but had to stop by and wish you a Happy (late) Birthday! I'm sure you heard me tell you on that Saturday but just incase you were busy watching over the many people who love you...you know I was thinking about you on your big 3-1! Love you bunches, Aaron!

[mom]

Happy Birthday Baby Boy,
I hope you are celebrating in a wonderful way. We are celebrating you and your dash today. Not a day goes by without you in my mind and heart.I miss you and love you forever.

[Mom]

The last few days seem to be difficult.Thoughts of you flood my mind and fight tears constantly. I got an email today from someone who knew you, and am reminded of the impact you had on the lives of so many. I know you worried you would be like your Dad, but you weren't. You had too much heart and too much concern for others. You showed that in the way you treated people and how you forgave almost anything. I know you called me a few weeks ago, thank you. Sounds odd, but, it could only have been you.
I miss you so much.I love you even more.

[Sam]

After your death a friend came to me with a letter. The letter said that you had saved her. She had been struggling with life lately and the overwhelming feeling of love at your funeral gave her the strength to stay alive.
She died Friday, and I hope you get to meet her. She's extraordinary just like you!

[Joshua Smith aka Buddha]

Well the spring is here and today was awsome... Drove by your house today on the way to d-port... and I could just piture you out workin on your car or yard... ran in to some old nieghbors of our last night at the bar... she had no idea you were gone... and she had the same comment has everyone one else. "BUT HE WAS SO HAPPY"... funny... guess you weren't

[Mom]

I had one of those flash moments last night. I caught a glimpse of a man standing with his arms folded and in that instant it looked like you. Funny, as I continued walking I felt all this pressure on my body, it felt like you were hugging me, and then it felt like you were pushing me forward, People tell me there are signs if you are open to them. I hope that was a sign, I hope it was you.

[Samantha]

It seems as time goes by people forget, or quit talking about you. It's different for me. I say your name everyday when I talk to my son and nothing feels better. I miss you...Still to this day I have to stop myself from calling you to tell you something cool that happened. I hope that never ends!

[Samantha]

Happy Birthday Aaron!!! I wish you could see baby Aaron. He has your eye color, I hope he gets your smile! The two of you will not only share a name but you will both have my eternal love. I'll never let anything happen to him Aaron, I promise. I love you.

[Mom]

Aaron,
How appropriate, your namesake is pictured next to your picture. You would have been so proud of Sam, she did an awesome job. I wonder if you were there? You have no idea how wonderful it feels to say your name over and over. I had my baby boy Aaron, now Sam has hers. I love you Aaron.